5 Weeks

That's right, I'm PREGO! 5 weeks pregnant to be more exact (it says 4 weeks in the picture but I found out the next day that I was actually 5 weeks) and if I told you I'm scared i'd be lying, I'm freakin terrified! This was not planned. The plan was to travel Europe, finish school then in 2 to 3 years start thinking of having a baby. But since when do things always go according to plan? whats the fun in that anyways? So here I am... 5 weeks pregnant and completely lost. Well, not completely, I have so many amazing family and friends that are more than willing to share their wisdom with me.

So this is how it happened... Not the actual baby making part, ya nasty, how it went down when I found out I was pregnant.

First it was the very basic missing of the period, I was four days late. My monthly gift is usually on time but every once in a while it decides to scare me a little, so this month I didn't think much of it but I did have an extra pregnancy test in my bathroom so I though "why not?" this was late at night and I drank tons of water before peeing on that little stick. I put it down behind me on the toilet and went on to get updated on my instagram feed, after a few minutes I had already forgotten about the stick behind me so when I turn around and see a '+' sign I almost drop my phone in the toilet (literally). My heart starts beating wild on my chest and my hand is shaking so hard I almost drop my phone and the stick in the toilet. I start to talk myself out of it, I told myself "there's no possible way i'm pregnant, the little line that makes the '+' is so light i'm probably imagining things, and it's a target brand so this thing probably doesn't even work." But that night I barely closed my eyes for longer than two seconds. So the next day I woke up extra early and passed by a pharmacy on my way to work and bought the good stuff (clear blue). I ran to the bathroom at my job and with my hands still shaky from the night before I peed on the freakin stick again. As I waited for the results I convinced myself that there was no way I could be pregnant, a whole movie of my *cough *cough sexual life crosses through my mind and I know I was responsible. But when I turn around, I see a beautiful, sweet and oh, so intimidating name appear on that God forsaken stick "pregnant" and all I could think was. "damn condoms, you cant trust anything nowadays." Oh, and the very typical What now???

    Never did I think i'd be posting a picture of my belly, pregnancy is already changing me ;)







Love,
Camylla